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Thursday, March 20, 2008

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 09:20:02 GMT

wow it was a long time that i didnt write here
last time i said that things are changing and its still is
but you know i want to say you that i read allot of blogs on myspace
and some of them are awesome, and you know why, because i saw that people really became closer to God
i can say that i persanally become closer to God
and it is so cool to have reall relationship with God, you know before i was sharing with you what is going on between me and God
but now God is talking the way that i dont want to let anyone be the 3d one :)
i really hope that all of you can experience this feeling some day
you know i live one day and i dont care what will be on the next day
and God can provide for each day
i dunno it is just awesome to have God in your heart
its not gonna make you a better person
it will just totally change you!!!
hope you all will have a blessed day

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 07:56:20 GMT

haloha, everyone

i think i grew up, and now it is not so fun to write blogs

but sometimes i will write you what is going on in my life and share with some of my thoughts!

so recently i thought that this life like a gas in a whater, it runs so fast and no one cant stop it for a moment

everything chanching and i think in our days people used to it, really

i remember when i was 16 and my friend told me that she is leaving to states,

at that moment i thought that my life is over, i was crying and didnt know what i would do after she will leave,

than almost all of my friend from Poltava left

and now my pastor with all his familly(and of of my best friends are leaving)

but i dont cry anymore i just anderstand that it is life and it will alwayse happen,

we are people and we are going somewhere all the time,

and i know that someday i will leave too

you know i dont have home, my home in Heavens, and only there i will stop, i think!!!

so what do you think about it,

you are welcome to coment, even if i dont know you persanaly

God loves you ,

and He knows the plan for your life!!!!

and i want you to know that there is at list one exit from the situation that you think is unovercomlest!!!!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 17:23:17 GMT

you know at university today i got a news

i will study for half a year more and i dunno what to do

all the plans i had are broken now

and really i upset

only one thin is making me happy

it is understanding that Gods plans will be done in my life

and He is almighty and it is His plan for me to stay in Poltava and in Ukraine for now

but still pray for me

im really upset that my freedom is taking from me!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 21:57:34 GMT

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 21:41:42 GMT

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 21:32:15 GMT

sorry for not writing
it was a long time
i was very busy, and also i have some others sites, im in shock how many sites my friends have
but its ok
i think in my life everything is ok,
soon im going to Poltava and i know that its not the same home as it was before, for me.
so im kinda in stress , to much things changed for the last 6 years
so im trying to stay strong and see the future before head,
so you see what kind of thoughts are waiting on you when you would be 22, ha ha
so i will put old pics, old as my life

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 17:47:07 GMT

ok a little remark
have you ever thought about death? are you afraid of it? or what kind of feeling do you have?

you know i'm just tired of seeing death all the time and im tired to hear about it.
in our city happened allot of killings and i personally know some peole who suffered.
so i dunno, im not affraid constently, but i cant do what i did before, for example to stay at my friends after dark, to stay longer at Bible studyes, and i cant enjoy life anymore, 'cause litterely when today you think "oh grate they cought killer"
next day the house with 50 people inside is blowing up.
and i know why its going on, the time is short and evil one wants to do as much mess as possible before he will go to fire lake
but now im not sharing and not asking the questions, im asking for praer about my city, we all need it
and also if you can write some nice encoregment(simple, no very, short and long)
please do it.
i know God is with me and He is grater then anyone, but im tired to see death.

please pray

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 11:01:46 GMT

hey everyone
i know it been forever since you saw me online
today i looked on clouns dresses and lostned to the Worship circle and its all just remind me about times 5 years ago
i rememeber when i just came to church, i was so afraid, it was so wierd to see saw many new people, haha, i remember i couldnt even come in! so many stuff was in my head at the moment, i remember i thought that girls in church were so not cute( they didnt have mascara and make up on them)
i remember not singing in church, i thought that people in church stupid if they do it :), so im stupid now.

I remember first group of Americans I saw, they were from Indiana, fisrst time I saw them it was in sanatorium , I came to help with painting

So I came and saw 15 people and none of them talk Russian :o

Ha ha ha,

And at that moment I barely talked English and oh gosh I remember they looked so weird, sure Bloomington!

Oh gosh it was so long time ago, now nothing is new for me

I have banch of friends, Afrecans, Americans, Ukranians, Chines, allot

So what was you 5 years ago?

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 18:02:13 GMT

so what is going on
like few days ago, some weird people from States left, they took my time and my strength
oh gosh awfull people
can you believe i survived for 4 days, oh gosh!!!!!!!
ok it was a huge JOKE
the people who came here i adore all of them and they were a blessing for me
maybe i wasnt really nice girl, but they were grate
i just want to ask everyone to pray for me
im going to the treap with youth and i dont feel like going
everything is against it, but i hope that God would do mirecal
so please pray
love you all

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 20:24:00 GMT

hi everyone
just want to share one of my poems, i just did it, hah i dont show them often
ok here we go:

I look in window, what i see
The lights in city shining bright
The moon is big
And all this right
my God creator made for me the picture only i can see.
He always care, He always near, He always know what good for me.
/////////// ///////////// //////////////
I'm only person,
who am I
One second kind another not
Today i care about whole earth
Next day forget about my friends and church.
So who am I, how can deserve God's favor, love?!
But this is point, i can't deserve,
I only need my Friend and Lord